RANDOM THOUGHTS...: First attempt for you dad...

RANDOM THOUGHTS...: First attempt for you dad...: Dad, or Babi, that both of us siblings called a man who ruled our lives single handedly till 2009, suddenly decided not do so within a star...

First attempt for you dad...

Dad, or Babi, that both of us siblings called a man who ruled our lives single handedly till 2009, suddenly decided not do so within a start and end period of 10 harrowing days...

The man who taught us what a man should be, how he should behave, talk, smell, walk quietly walked away into a long dark path which just didnt beckon us .

As women we were secretly in love with him, and felt jealous of mom, for being lucky enough to have him:) Could we ever get any man even half as close to him??

As soon as I heard he was sick and had to be hospitalised, I just left everything, rushed beside him. Horrible to see him, strapped on ahospital bed, with the oxygen pipes stuck thru his nostrils.. How could the man who could put any 30 year old man to shame with his gait, be bundled up like this..

Even now his hug was warm and tight just as always, reassuring me everything would be in place.

The next 7 days saw him fighting bravely as a lion caged in could possibly do , and I loved just being beside him. Powdered him, fed him, put him to sleep and sleathily even managed to catch some sleep lying on that big chest. Was enjoying every moment of my "me-babi-time".

Then suddenly out of the blue, someone somewhere else wanted him more. Was getting envious of my proximity with him I guess. babi had to be shifted to the ICU and situations just got out of control. We jsu tried every trick in the medical bag, but lost him in 3 days time. My sis and my kids could just make it in time to see him before the nurses were doing the artificial pumping on him.

What happened? He didint even say a good bye? was he angry at my efforts? Didint I do something rite?

It was the last time I saw the big grey eyes open and also the last time I asked something from the Almighty. Have never been to HIM ever since.

Actually have I accepted the truth? why is it that I still cant think of him? Why have I blocked out the man i loved the most in the whole wide world, and never give him a thought?

Would he be thinking about me? Where would he be? Who would be rufffling up his hair, screaming into his ears to bug the daylights out of him, or talking incessantly just to irritate him, and get a response? Who would be playing with the hair on his arms, or just jumping upto him, and giving him a big bear hug?

All our efforts were made just to get that approval nod from him, an nothing else really mattered..

With all the men who come and go from our lives, none ever compare to you Babi.. You are my hero and the man I love the mostest...

Miss you forever